Sunday, September 24, 2006
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Thursday, September 21, 2006
sometimes i get a little nervous..
when i see you..
i wouldn't know what to say..
and so,
i'd turn and look away..
.::.
when we try not to live by any expectations..
we're actually silently expecting for more..
spoken on
11:41 PM
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Tuesday, September 19, 2006
// bruised by past, unfolded.
mysteries..
what's real and what's not?
lies carried up as we breathe..
what do you believe?
.::.
as i suffocate..
i breathe through thin air..
my mind focused..
on what needs to be entirely erased..
i choked..
as my ears bloomed..
embittered and withered..
by false unpleasant words..
so much more..
spread..
so little..
in truth, i stand..
alone,
with these invisible scars..
that darkens each time..
i look at the mirror..
causing tears streaming down..
so unwanted and forlorn..
inside me screams,
"if only you could walk inside me.. see these tainted walls- cracked. read what's splattered all over.."
what do you see?
my misery.
..:::..
and as night falls..
i lay in bed..
i see myself dancing on the desert sand..
beneath the sky littered with sparkling stars..
and as the wind caresses me..
i smiled.
:::
a brown spread soil, fertilized..
with planted seeds that'll bloom into pulchritude blossoms..
flawless and pure..
::
life.
so fragile..
that only make us cherish more with our heart and soul.
.::::.
to my dear friend,
i am sorry you have lost someone who means more than the world to you.
i know for sure.. she'll always be around to watch you grow..
i just want you to know that you are beautiful and you're a strong girl..
she will always be your angel
and we'll always be your strength.
everything's gonna be alright.
you'll never be alone.
spoken on
12:09 AM
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Sunday, September 17, 2006
in dreams, it may symbolize sadness.
but in reality..
true bliss.
spoken on
1:50 AM
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Thursday, September 14, 2006
question.
have you ever felt like..
reality is far out of reach and you're actually living in a dream?
you've manipulated yourself so much into triggering..
becoming a make-believer.
::
i've lost touch with so many things.
i think i'm losing my mind.
.::.
come on boys,
where's my straight jacket.
.::.
so fucking..
claustrophobic.
insanity in front view..
grab it hard..
and break your fist.
spoken on
11:42 PM
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jae .: 12 sept '06 .::. 4.37pm
of late its been clear..
like mother mary's tears..
she takes away my fears..
through the distance i hear..
that sweet voice that rings in my ear..
my dearest baby dear,
oh how i wish you were here..
jo .: 12 sept '06 .::. 5.26pm
oh how you wish i was there..
my dearest baby dear..
that sweet voice that rang in your ear..
you ain't deaf you could hear..
me asking you, do you want me over..
i could've gotten you a beer..
and do a little silly cheer..
to cure your aching boredem..
but no, you blowed..
so just chill and go with the flow..
hanging around a van..
maybe you'll get a tan..
jae .: 12 sept '06 .::. 5.34pm
at the terminal watching planes fly.
to see you my heart cries.
to disappear on my second day i'll get fried.
you'll see me here when i'm not tied..
the promise of a guy, its not a lie..
together we'll have chicken from popeye.
jo .: 12 sept '06 .::. 5.56pm
i didn't say anything about a lie..
i know when ya not tied, you'd try..
to make some time and we'll watch the planes go by..
high up in the sky..
and no i don't wanna eat chicken from popeye..
not even fries..
i'll cry..
when i get huge thighs..
so have fun rotting and stop being a guy..
who never says die..
this ain't gon get you a prize..
so be good now or i'll see you next july..
spoken on
2:36 PM
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Wednesday, September 13, 2006
// exotic fragrance in the air..
candles :.
.: cabernet shiraz
cigarette smoke :.
.: skin on skin
music swaying :.
.: satisfaction
taste of sweetness :.
.: words unfold
revealed :.
.: such loving touch
passion :.
.: eyes on fire
whispers :.
.: unforgettable
warmth :.
.: an open heart
silent sighs :.
.: comatose
.: you and me :.
every kiss..
is like the very first kiss..
and every minute spent..
is a new beginning..
.::.
LSD
love, sensuality and devotion.
spoken on
5:04 AM
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i got woken up by two familiar voices..
mom: why didn't you answer the phone when daddy called last night?
sis: why? i'm not an operator.
she should be drop kicked out of this house.
:::
// the perfect dream..
with my hands up high..
just gazing up into the glossy pink sky..
dancing around..
the perfect sky..
under pink lacquered skies..
::
// receieved a white flower..
"if the flowers are white, then it symbolizes sadness."
:
.question of the day.
are we still holding back?
spoken on
11:26 AM
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Friday, September 08, 2006
this is the first time in weeks i'm actually feeling sad.
how can someone be so judgemental and so short sighted.
i am disappointed.
i'm sick to be related to you.
:::
// earlier tonight..
went out to starbucks..
chilled out with tracy, daryl and brownie..
noticed how dar and browns look so much alike..
dar left shortly..
tracy and i gotta canna beer each and headed down to elite park..
we were exchanging stories of all kinds..
::
dragging my feet down memory lane..
past lingers, eyes wide open..
i swallowed hard..
visions pierced right through my mind..
and arrowed down to my heart..
inside my head was a flood..
i survived.
spoken on
2:34 AM
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Monday, September 04, 2006
if you grip it too hard, it will eventually slip away..
let it breathe, make it stay..
::
i want to start something new..
.::.
"The truth is, everyone's going to hurt you. You just have to decide who is worth the pain."
i'll give you my all..
i'll hold on to you..
'cause you're worth more than you'd ever know.
spoken on
12:42 PM
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// i cannot fall asleep..
i've been circling around my bed..
spinning and kicking the sheets..
damn, i seriously need a good sleep!
i needa get my body clock back to norm..
again and again.
this sucks.
:::
the morning breeze takes me back into your arms..
teach me how to love again..
i'll lead you into my world..
i want to open up to you..
tell you all that i know..
spoken on
7:55 AM