Thursday, November 23, 2006
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Wednesday, November 22, 2006
// i saw two shooting stars tonight..
the horizon..
such a beautiful sight..
as each minute passes by..
the sea turns blue..
reflections from the light of day..
half light..
still, something's missing in my heart..
as the sun slowly rises.. i walk away..
::
the falling sky grows darker every day.
and all the roads that lead me to your heart..
.. have gone astray.
my hands are tied behind my back..
i'm weakened by your slow attack.
you take me in, then change your mind again.
your spinning wheel won’t lead me to your view..
and all the words i need to hear from you.
.. and still in love with you.
hold my face, in your hands, look into my eyes..
so i'll understand, all the toughts, inside your mind..
tell me it’s time..
spoken on
6:59 AM
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Tuesday, November 21, 2006
the beast in me, unleashed..
from tears and other things.
each time i'm harden..
from self-destructions..
that only constructs the layers of void..
brick by brick it blinds my eyes..
thick walls surrounding me..
the world is just a blue print..
::
seal my fate.
:
i drill down inside..
i'm colourblind.
spoken on
11:18 PM
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Tuesday, November 14, 2006
as i breathe in the cold air..
music playing softly..
i close my eyes and..
i see white sheets of bliss swaying..
traveling back..
to our first night by the beach..
the first taste of your lips..
our endless late night chats..
our daily toxic liquid..
the thrills we silently seek..
the first time you made me weak..
on my knees..
we were skin on skin..
::
how a simple night could be such a delight..
just having you here by my side..
and as we watch the world pass us by..
i know you'd stay..
all my troubles dissolved into such sweetness..
just by your embrace..
::
you stitch my flaws..
you're the only comfort i crave for..
you wrap me up with your gentle smile..
in your warmth, i feel secure..
distance away from you..
is just a step from heaven's door..
spoken on
3:54 AM
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Friday, November 10, 2006
i'm the beast inside of you
the one that eats you up inside
i feel your fear and i'm your mirror
every word you said you've made it clear
while you hide behind your invisible sphere
i've finally see through you after all these years
clearly, i've been pushed around
i've been made used and i've been bruised
and mentally abused
still, i always try..
i've given in too many times
i've reached my extended limit
you are vile, arrogant, selfish, unreasonable, self-centered and judgemental
i'm sure you're one of a kind
a person like you
surely, its hard to find
the thoughts of you being related to me
kills me inside
clearly, i've been pushed around
i've been made used and i've been bruised
and mentally abused
still, i always try..
::
i've always tried to be your friend..
spoken on
3:18 AM
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it's 6am in the morning..
awaiting the morning sky..
each second was a slice..
the urge, i scream inside..
and as she spat those hurtful words..
i choked down in sadness..
it rained on me today..
such conflicts
self-infliction
i'm restricted
my sweet addiction
:::
whenever you're feeling sad..
and you feel like cying..
control your own tears..
the harder people push you..
it will only make you stronger..
i'm standing on my own.
and i won't cry..
for crying is a weakness shown..
::
now that i know you'd stay the same..
i know i gotta change..
to play your little filthy mindless game..
.::.
you are my sister-
and i love you.
but i can't love you enough to tolerate you.
spoken on
4:14 PM