Monday, April 28, 2008
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Thursday, April 24, 2008
if only you could accept me for the girl that i am..
take my hand..
i'd give it all-
and love you all over again.
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i believe in true feelings..
the feelings that ignites inside cannot be a lie.
no matter how hard we push it away..
force ourselves to be a part.
no matter how hard we try..
deep down, i know we're meant for each other.
:
whenever i lay in your arms..
the world never fails to dissolve into such sweetness..
if only i could look you in the eyes again..
i will tell you just how much i need you in my life..
if only it was this easy..
if only i could call you mine..
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if you were here..
i'd whisper in your sleep..
i love you baby..
and you are all that i need.
sweetest dreams..
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3:23 AM
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Wednesday, April 23, 2008
HAHAHA!
fucking hilarious!
"when given thc, and active ingredient in marijuana. the spider didn't build a web. it built a hammock, where it lay all day and watched the caffeine spider go."
"when given alcohol, the spider built a web and found a mate but the mate got a restraining order..."
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5:37 PM
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Tuesday, April 22, 2008
in·gé·nue says:
oohh i ran yst!!
in·gé·nue says:
so proud of myself.
in·gé·nue says:
i actually sweat from running!
in·gé·nue says:
not dancing in a club.
in·gé·nue says:
RUNNING
dar says:
how far did you run
in·gé·nue says:
!
dar says:
100m ah
in·gé·nue says:
uhm.
dar says:
hahhahahahaha
in·gé·nue says:
from ecp macs..
dar says:
you?... run?
in·gé·nue says:
to lagoon.
dar says:
really meh
in·gé·nue says:
stopped for a beer.
in·gé·nue says:
at lagoon.
in·gé·nue says:
then walked back to macs.
in·gé·nue says:
went to the ktv upstairs..
in·gé·nue says:
stop for another beer.
in·gé·nue says:
played pool.. and had a couple of martell green tea
in·gé·nue says:
BUT
in·gé·nue says:
i RAN!
in·gé·nue says:
before that.
in·gé·nue says:
i wore SHOES
dar says:
......................
dar says:
hahahaha
dar says:
stopped for a beer
dar says:
hahahahahhahahhaa
in·gé·nue says:
lolol..
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6:19 PM
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Monday, April 21, 2008
to release and succumb..
the open sky.
hightened your senses.
to embrace and exhale..
the atmosphere.
versatility
to be seduced and to savor..
the exotic air.
acceptance.
to be hidden and erased..
in the sand of time.
the healing process.
to be cleansed and evolved..
by the ocean tide.
be reborn.
to reminisce and sustain..
all wounded memories.
stay strong.
to descent and rise upon..
every mortal dreams.
be courageous.
to defeat and conquer..
sinful temptations.
resistance.
to infuse and be consumed..
by distorted fate.
to abide by changes.
to carry on and partake..
the walk of life.
independency.
to indulge and conseal..
the art of lies.
positivity.
to rebel and unravel..
obstructive fallacy.
liberty.
to be humble and contented..
by shallow awakenings.
ignore criticism and hypocrisy.
to release and succumb..
oblivious oracle.
to embrace and exhale..
the vicious cycle.
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4:17 AM
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You entered: Joanna Cheng Yi Ting
There are 17 letters in your name.
Those 17 letters total to 86
There are 6 vowels and 11 consonants in your name.
What your first name means:
Latin Female God is gracious.
Feminine form of John (from the Latin Johanna).
Hebrew Female Gift from God.
French Female God's gift.
English Female Variant of Joan. Feminine of John.
Biblical Female Grace or gift of the Lord
Your number is: 5
The characteristics of #5 are: Expansiveness, visionary, adventure, the constructive use of freedom.
The expression or destiny for #5:
The number 5 Expression endows with the wonderful characteristic of multi-talents and versatility. You can do so many things well. The tone of the number 5 is constructive freedom, and in your drive to attain this freedom, you will likely be the master of adaptability and change. You are good at presenting ideas and knowing how to approach people to get what you want. Naturally, this gives you an edge in any sort of selling game and spells easy success when it comes to working with people in most jobs. Your popularity may lead you toward some form of entertainment or amusement. Whatever you do, you are clever, analytical, and a very quick thinker.
If there is too much of the 5 energy in your makeup, you may express some the negative attitudes of the number. Your restless and impatient attitude may keep you from staying with any project for too long. Sometimes you can be rather erratic and scatter yourself and your energies. You have a hard time keeping regular office hours and maintaining any sort of a routine. You tend to react strongly if you sense that your freedom of speech or action is being impaired or restricted in any way. As clever as you are, you may have a tendency to make the same mistakes over and over again because much of your response is glib reaction rather that thoughtful application. You are in a continuous state of flux brought by constantly changing interests.
Your Soul Urge number is: 4
A Soul Urge number of 4 means:
With the Soul Urge or Motivation number of 4 you are likely to strive for a stable life. You tend to follow a rather orderly pattern and systematic approach in your endeavors. You have an inner desire to serve others in a methodical and diligent manner. You want to be in solid, conventional, and well-regulated activities, and you are somewhat disturbed by innovation and erratic or sudden changes. Excellent at organizing, systematizing, and managing, you have a way of establishing order and maintaining it. You are responsible, reliable and in the final analysis, practical. Highly analytical, you can see your way through all sorts of situations and generally have a clear understanding of the issues. You are a very honest, sincere, and conscientious individual.
The negative side of the 4 is rigid, stubborn and somewhat narrow-minded. There is a tendency to hide feelings, or to really not be aware of real feelings. Avoid being too rigid and stubborn in your thinking, and try to always see the big picture rather than becoming to involved with the detail. Don't be afraid to take a chance once in awhile.
Your Inner Dream number is: 1
An Inner Dream number of 1 means:
You dream of being a leader and one who is in charge. You want to be known for your courage, daring, and original ideas. You seek unconquered heights. People may get a first impression that you are very aggressive and sure of yourself.
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11:35 PM
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7 June 1987
Your date of conception was on or about 14 September 1986 which was a Sunday.
You were born on a Sunday
under the astrological sign Gemini.
Your Life path number is 11.
Your fortune cookie reads:
It takes more than good memory to have good memories.
Life Path Compatibility:
You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 4, 8, 11 & 22.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 3 & 6.
You may or may not get along well with those with the Life Path number 9.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 5 & 7.
The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2446953.5.
The golden number for 1987 is 12.
The epact number for 1987 is 0.
The year 1987 was not a leap year.
Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 1/29/1987 and ending 2/16/1988.
You were born in the Chinese year of the Rabbit.
Your Native American Zodiac sign is Elk; your plant is Mullein.
You were born in the Egyptian month of Mesore, the fourth month of the season of Shomu (Harvest).
Your date of birth on the Hebrew calendar is 10 Sivan 5747.
Or if you were born after sundown then the date is 11 Sivan 5747.
The Mayan Calendar long count date of your birthday is 12.18.14.1.9 which is
12 baktun 18 katun 14 tun 1 uinal 9 kin
The Hijra (Islamic Calendar) date of your birth is Sunday, 9 Shavval 1407 (1407-10-9).
The date of Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 19 April 1987.
The date of Orthodox Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 19 April 1987.
The date of Ash Wednesday (the first day of Lent) on your birth year was Wednesday 4 March 1987.
The date of Whitsun (Pentecost Sunday) in the year of your birth was Sunday 7 June 1987.
The date of Whisuntide in the year of your birth was Sunday 14 June 1987.
The date of Rosh Hashanah in the year of your birth was Thursday, 24 September 1987.
The date of Passover in the year of your birth was Tuesday, 14 April 1987.
The date of Mardi Gras on your birth year was Tuesday 3 March 1987.
As of 4/21/2008 11:22:18 AM EDT
You are 20 years old.
You are 250 months old.
You are 1,089 weeks old.
You are 7,624 days old.
You are 182,987 hours old.
You are 10,979,242 minutes old.
You are 658,754,538 seconds old.
Celebrities who share your birthday:
Anna Kournikova (1981) Larisa Oleynik (1981) Allen Iverson (1975)
Karl Urban (1972) Prince (1958) Liam Neeson (1952)
Jenny Jones (1946) Tom Jones (1940) Dean Martin (1917)
Jessica Tandy (1909) Paul Gauguin (1848)
Top songs of 1987
Faith by George Michael Livin' On a Prayer by Bon Jovi
Alone by Heart With or Without You by U2
La Bamba by Los Lobos I Wanna Dance with Somebody by Whitney Houston
Nothing's Gonna Stop Us Now by Starship
I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For by U2
Didn't We Almost Have It All by Whitney Houston
I Knew You Were Waiting by Aretha Franklin & George Michael
Your age is the equivalent of a dog that is 2.9839530332681 years old. (Life's just a big chewy bone for you!)
Your lucky day is Wednesday.
Your lucky number is 5.
Your ruling planet(s) is Mercury.
Your lucky dates are 5th, 14th, 23rd.
Your opposition sign is Sagittarious.
Your opposition number(s) is 3.
Today is not one of your lucky days!
There are 47 days till your next birthday
on which your cake will have 21 candles.
Those 21 candles produce 21 BTUs,
or 5,292 calories of heat (that's only 5.2920 food Calories!) .
You can boil 2.40 US ounces of water with that many candles.
In 1987 there were approximately 3.7 million births in the US.
In 1987 the US population was approximately 226,545,805 people, 64.0 persons per square mile.
In 1987 in the US there were 2,421,000 marriages (9.9%) and 1,157,000 divorces (4.8%)
In 1987 in the US there were approximately 1,990,000 deaths (8.8 per 1000)
In the US a new person is born approximately every 8 seconds.
In the US one person dies approximately every 12 seconds.
In 1987 the population of Australia was approximately 16,394,641.
In 1987 there were approximately 243,959 births in Australia.
In 1987 in Australia there were approximately 114,113 marriages and 39,725 divorces.
In 1987 in Australia there were approximately 117,321 deaths.
Your birthstone is Alexandrite
The Mystical properties of Alexandrite
Alexandrite can assist one in centering the self, reinforcing self-esteem, and augmenting ones ability to experience joy.
Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)
Pearl, Moonstone, Opal
Your birth tree is
Hornbeam, the good taste
Of cool beauty, cares for its looks and condition, good taste, tends to egoism, makes life as comfortable as possible, leads reasonable, disciplined life, looks for kindness, an emotional partner and acknowledgment, dreams of unusual lovers, is seldom happy with her feelings, mistrusts most people, is never sure of its decisions, very conscientious.
There are 248 days till Christmas 2008!
There are 261 days till Orthodox Christmas!
The moon's phase on the day you were
born was waxing gibbous.
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11:28 PM
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Sunday, April 20, 2008
my mom stupidly locked herself out of her own bedroom.
she came to me for help giving me a bundle of keys..
i tried each and everyone of them-
it just wouldn't work..
so i tried all sorta wires and screw drivers..
i kept fiddling with it.
still, i just couldn't reach the bolt on the other end.
next, i thought... a card might just do the job.
but the door was designed in a way that blocks the card from slotting in.
then it got kinda annoying.
it all resorts to climbing up from the porch- to the balcony..
so i grabbed a ladder, climbed up to the room's balcony..
and i got in.
three hours later..
she locked herself out again.
spoken on
4:02 PM
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Friday, April 18, 2008
why do people have a conscious?
i don't want one.
here, take mine.
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4:36 PM
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// BQ River
i couldn't resist it-
i use up my last three dollars..
and bought three doughnuts from the shop..
just because they looked awfully cute and small.
mmMmm... doughnuts.
i had no idea they tasted so bad.
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5:39 PM
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Thursday, April 10, 2008
The Iron Maiden
The iron maiden was a man-size container fitted on the inside with sharp metal spikes.
There was a great deal in craftsmanship and knowledge of the human body.
The spikes inside is created in a way, intended to miss the vital organs.
This was to assure that the victims will remain alive for as long as possible-
Experiencing tremendous pain and suffering.
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The Rack
You can use it in many different methods in the process.
The first element is the crane at the first end of the device where you’d tie the person’s feet. You’d slowly add more tension and roll the body to the spikes that will only be sharper in time.. And on the other end of the crane is where both hands would be locked down.
The victim would be left exposed and often naked-
And at that point, any number of things could be done.
The rack would potentially be ripping off tendons and creating severe damages to the nerves. People might feel the inability to use their hands- they might feel numbness and constant pain.
Ultimately, the rack was designed to slowly tear the victim’s limps out of their joints. The legs out of the hip joints- and the arms out of the shoulder joints.
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The interrogation chair
The primary function would be to sit on the spikes with your wrist held down- chest strapped tightly and legs clamped.
The second major torture mechanism and design of the chair is- it can be heated.
All the metal spikes on the chair conduct heat. A fire would be placed beneath the chair bringing a intense swelters…
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Thumb Screws & Finger Screws
The screws were highly engineered torture devices.
It worked like a pair of nut crackers.
The way its used is to place the fingers and knuckles inside the two bars…
Slowly increasing pressures- till the amount of pain is enough to get information from the victim.
The thumb is the most important finger that you have-
When you actually crush the thumb it’s almost useless,
it’s got tremendous value in that way.
The thumb is also a very sensitive part of your body.
The nerves are highly dense in the fingers.
Crushing nerves in the fingers causes significant pain.
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The Pear
The pear was a device that expanded after being inserted orally, anally or vaginally.
It was used to rupture the sensitive membranes and tissues of these areas.
With much of the damage being inside the body cavity, “confessions” thus extracted could seem to be given free.
This instrument is also used on homosexuality.
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The Breast Ripper
Cold or red-hot, the four claws slowly ripped to formless masses the breasts of countless women condemned for heresy, blasphemy, adultery and many other “libidinous acts”, self-induced abortion, erotic white magic and other crimes.
In various places at various times –in some regions of France and Germany until the early nineteenth century– a “bite” with a red-hot ripper was inflicted upon one breast of unmarried mothers, often whilst their creatures, splattered with maternal blood, writhed on the ground at their feet.
Besides the punitive function, breast-ripping also served as an interrogational and juridical procedure.
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The Crocodile shears
The eight-inch jaws made of iron- cast sides of a tube, the insides of which feature rows of spikes were heated and then clamped around the penis. and with only a modicum of applied tension, they slowly and painfully separate him from his smoldering manhood.
Depending on factors like blood loss and infection, death is hardly a certainty.
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The Branks
The Branks, or Scold's Bridle, is a sort of metal gag, which was principally used on scolding housewives. It was typically fashioned as a cage that locked onto the head, aided by a metal protrusion that fit into the mouth. This tongue-piece was often enhanced with spikes or a rowel (small spiked wheel) to discourage attempts to speak. They appear to have originated in Scotland in the 16th century and passed from there to England and thence to the Americas, although there is some evidence that a type of branks may have been used even earlier
Some were also fitted with a chain to permit securing the wearer in a public place. Ancient houses in Congleton, Cheshire had a hook fixed beside the fireplace to which the town gaoler could fix the community bridle if the wife nagged too much.
Occasionally a bell on a spring was added to herald the approach of the wearer. An example of this type is on display in the Torture Chamber of the Tower of London.
Branks were also used to silence witches to prevent them from chanting or reciting their magic spells.
In the Americas, the brankswere a type of humiliation punishment, while in medieval Europe, they were used more as a torture device.
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The Wheel
Being broken or "braided" on the wheel was one of the most insidiously painful methods of torure and execution practised in Europe.
After hanging, “breaking with the wheel” was the most common means of execution throughout Germanic Europe from the early Middle Ages to the beginning of the eighteenth century; in Gallic and Latin Europe the breaking was done with massive iron bars and with maces instead of wheels.
The victim, naked, was stretched out supine on the ground or on the execution dock, with his or her limbs spread, and tied to stakes or iron rings. Stout wooden crosspieces were placed under the wrists, elbows, ankles, knees and hips. The executioner then smashed limb after limb and joint after joint, including the shoulders and hips, with the iron-tyred edge of the wheel, but avoiding fatal blows. The victim was transformed, according to the observations of a seventeenth-century German chronicler, “into a sort of huge screaming puppet writhing in rivulets of blood, a puppet with four tentacles, like a sea monster, of raw, slimy and shapeless flesh (rohw, schleymig und formlos Fleisch wie di Schleuch eines Tündenfischs) mixed up with splinters of smashed bones”. Thereafter the shattered limbs were “braided” into the spokes of the large wheel, and the victim hoisted up horizontally to the top of a pole, where the crows ripped away bits of flesh and pecked out eyes. Death came after what was probably the longest and most atrocious agony that the ingenuousness of the power structure could inflict.
Together with burning at the stake and drawing-and-quartering, this was one of the most popular spectacles among the many similar ones that took place in all the squares of Europe more or less every day. Hundreds of depictions from the span 1450-1750 show throngs of plebeians and the well-born lost in rapt delight around a good wheeling, better if of a woman, best of all if of several women in a row.
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The Judas Cradle
This procedure has remained essentially unchanged from the Middle Ages until today. The victim is hoisted up in the manner shown in the accompanying illustration, and lowered onto the point of the pyramid in such a way that his weight rests on the point positioned in the anus, in the vagina, under the scrotum or under the coccyx (the last two or three vertebrae).
The executioner, according to the pleasure of the interrogators, could vary the pressure from zero to that of total body weight. The victim can be rocked, or made to fall repeatedly onto the point.
The Judas cradle was thus called also in Italian (culla di Giuda) and German (Judaswiege), but in French it was known as la veille, “the wake” or “nightwatch”.
Nowadays this method enjoys the favour of not a few governments in Latin America and elsewhere, with and without improvements like electrified waist rings and pyramid points.
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The Headcrusher
Headcrushers exerted tremendous force on the head by means of a screw. This could be used to force a confession or as a means of execution. Some headcrushers had a sharp point at the tip of the screw which would drive into the skull, anchoring it for the pressure of the skull plate.
Examples of headcrushers can be seen in the Tower of London and at the Tijuana, Mexico Cultural Center.
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The Whirligig
The whirligig was a device used as a military punishment.
The offender was put in a cage which was spun rapidly, resulting in nausea and vomiting.
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The Cat’s Paw (also Spanish tickler)
About as large as four fingers of a man’s hand, these devices, usually attached to a short handle, served to rip the victim’s flesh to shreds and to strip it off the bones, in any part: face, abdomen, back, limbs, breasts.
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The Heretic's Fork
With the four sharp points rammed deep into the flesh under the chin and into the bone of the sternum, the fork prevented all movement of the head and allowed the victim only to murmur, in a barely audible voice, “abiuro” (“I recant”, engraved on one side of the fork).
If instead he still refused, and if the Inquisition was the Spanish one, he was held to be an “impenitent heretic” and, dressed in the characteristic costume, was led to the stake, but with the consolation of the sacrament if extreme unction; if instead it was the Papal Inquisition, he was hanged or burnt, without the benefit of the pretty costume but still with that of proper Christian rites.
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in this society,
people takes pleasure at the sight of others suffering.
the hunger of bloodlust and the orgasmic agony.
that really facinates me..
i guess that's how bondage came about.. hmmm..
kinky.
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1:43 PM
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i can't deny the fact that i'm lost.
a quiet desperation-
a hollow emptiness-
i hate to admit it..
:::
i hate the fact that i'm not strong enough..
on the surface, i breathe through layers of masks..
i feel so misunderstood.
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sofuckingjaded.
it was an escape..
temporary high.
that was an escape.
but it is now a trap.
and i don't wanna be stuck in it.
:
fighting all the demons will take time..
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2:19 PM